Eating is about relationships

Ever since graduating with my MBA in June 2009,  I have been doing my best to get back in shape.  Its funny that I have gained the amount of weight that I have, since I am used to being that “skinny little” Indian kid in high school.  While, I feel great and I have seen success, I really want my quest for fitness to be more than just looking good (I would be lying to you if I said it was not a factor).  It’s about being happy.  Yes, I know…it’s a cliche, but it’s the truth.  I need to change the way I look at my body and my relationship with food.  I am lucky that my frame allows me to hide much of my weight, but people close to me notice the gain.  I notice the gain.  What is worse, is  that I suffer from the yo-yo effect.  I will go through months of good eating, hitting the gym and playing the sports that I love and back to eating junk and missing the gym.

By design, I am attempting to drop the pounds slowly.  Understanding that my ultimate goal Its important that exercise is not just something I do just to lose weight rather its a way to spend more time with friends, family and feel good about myself.   My weight gain started before the MBA, so that means that there is something broken with my own behavior.  Most of this has to do with my ability to manage stress in my personal life.  I have observed that I tend to eat bad food when I am unhappy or angry.  Its that that I eat more, rather the food I select to eat tends to be fatty, processed food.  I eat fast food, or frozen food.

I have to be honest, I don’t think its fair that I blame the MBA for my weight gain.  I can blame age, runs to Taco Bell, my addiction to Sushi, Shabu Shabu, and ice cream.

I will continue to share my thoughts and struggles in the area.  I also would love to hear some comments from you on your relationship with food.  What is your relationship with food?

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2 thoughts on “Eating is about relationships

  1. Good luck, Ranjun. I remember you as a “skinny Indian kid!” After hitting a top wieght of 290 (at least – I probably weighed more, but I stopped weighing), I began a weight loss program and took the weight off so, so slowly. I think when we knew each other, I was about 23O, maybe more. Now, I’m down to 190, but the doctor says I should be 175. I’ve been fluctuating between 180 and 210. I struggle with the vanity vs. the sanity issue, i.e., am I trying to lose weight to be cute (too late for that!) or for the health and spiritual balance I crave. My relationship with food has been rocky. When I depend on food for comfort and solace, I end up binging. I tend to stuff my feelings with food, and food definitely works – only too well! When I am in a more spiritual place, food is about nutrition rather than succour. So, best of luck to you. Looking forward to reading more about your journey.

    • Hey Henry,

      Thanks for the reply. Your progress in inspiring. I think we have to come to terms with the fact that wanting to look a certain way is NOT a bad thing. It’s okay…I think its a problem, when we project those standards on to others or judge them as a result. I think weight, food, and exercise is something that many of us struggle with. I believe that this is more about the process and less about the result.

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